today crept up out of nowhere and, all of a sudden, it was the deadline for submitting my first ever abstract for a conference. for some reason i am one of those people that leaves it to the last minute. i am not exactly sure if i am happy with that trait though! laziness and procrastination seem to be a hindrance to my productivity and i find myself more stressed about how little time i have left to complete something rather than actually putting pen to paper. then there is the jitters from the anxiety attacks, not helped by the copious cups of coffee of course. imminently, there is the brain meltdown and total loss of confidence and an overwhelming feeling of giving up. but underneath all that fretting, a little voice coaxes me to keep at it.
anyway, the conference will be in seven weeks and i find out on monday if it has been accepted. it will be a miracle as i spent about two days thinking of a topic and less time putting it on paper. it will basically be a discussion of the manuscript tradition of the text I am working on and addressing the structure and presentation of the edition. So let’s keep fingers crossed.